There are some memories and experiences we could have done without, we’ve all been there. Like it or lump it, though, they are part of our structure, wobbly uneven bricks which are wedged into the whole. So be it – que sera, sera
For most of us, the memories we’d shed are of the friends who let us down, the relationships we really should never have had, stupid things we did arrggghhhh why?! Regrets, shame, guilt and the cringe-worthy ones which pop up at 3 in the morning. Move on, fast.
Moving on isn’t always possible. Some experiences destroy any chance of normal life, twist and distort personality and the future forever. Psychiatry, psycho-therapy, all the counselling in the world can’t reach through the scar damage or take it away, at best there is only the dismal hope of living with the damage. Childhood abuse, wartime atrocities, things seen which can never be unseen, mistakes made which can never be undone. They spread so insistently throughout your psyche that they will dictate the future forever and cannot be shut away . . .
Unless they could be. Do-Over is a story of three people with unbearable lives who are outside normal society, shut away where they can no longer hurt others or themselves. Their damaging memories are cut away but not out of kindness. They are destined to be used as disposable pawns in violent situations, terminated if ever they revert, guinea pigs for a new procedure which could offer new life to many in torture.
It’s a quick thriller, not too heavyweight or gory, burgeoning hope and growing confidence, a million miles from anything I’ve done before.
Love you to read it, so it’s on the lowest price Amazon can offer for a couple of days.